Love Notes From Adriane

Hey ya’ll. I want to first start by saying thanks for being patient with me. I know I haven’t been active in a few months but I have been sorting through a few things and wanted to be sure I was ready to talk about it. Let’s talk this crazy journey, I’ve been gifted with called… INFERTILITY!

Over the last few months Dom and I have went through numerous cycles of infertility drugs that have caused weight gain, hair loss, mood swings, hot flashes and a host of other things. But they all have ended in disappointment. The hardest part is in the last few months there has been an increase of people we know who are announcing pregnancies, having baby showers and posting beautiful family photos.

Side note: With the weight gain, I have been asked more than once if I was pregnant. And told multiple times that I’m gaining weight. Not cool guys, not cool.

I can’t even explain to you how hard this is has been for the both of us. I have NEVER cried this much in my life. Every doctor’s appointment is an emotional rollercoaster. We come in with so much optimism and leave deflated and feel defeated. We are slowly starting to understand this is our process to start our family. And as much as it sucks, this is the hand we were dealt.

I didn’t share because I wanted anyone to feel sorry for me. But I’m sharing this to say that life is not always as we plan it to be. It’s okay to cry, to be upset, to take time alone, to scream, to be angry, to ask questions, to be disappointed and say you are overwhelmed. There is no shame is going through tough times. What I’m really saying is go through tough times, but don’t give up. WE AREN’T.

Keep us in your prayers, and baby dust to my fellow TTC sisters.